This evening’s dogwalk: springlike light and pubic grass. I moped all day in brain fog. Now I feel my rebel hormones–wounded band of siblings–coming to. This May, I’m turning sixty-four. An earworm Beatles tune’s tamped down by gauzy rags of dream: six-fingered hands that cut a Tarot deck. I love the pictures, never get the meaning. That’s the deal, my darker angel tells me. Sorrow, loss, regret, departure; friendship, drunken dancing, rowing on the moonlit river: all mixed willy-nilly. Backyard spruces sway in soft breeze, three times taller than they were twelve years ago. They too will die --Thomas Zimmerman