Endurance (sounds so excessive when used in a sentence to describe living)
I think I’m dying every day and every day I’m fine I’m frightened of the noises in the night / scared of my own shadow --whatever-- I am highly educated if I stopped comparing myself to every other woman I would have the wherewithal to do something with those degrees rather than stare at them while drinking a martini fuck you fuck me please I hate you and I hate this roof / these shackles / these binding terms but I love you so - don’t ever leave me! I have separation anxiety has never healed in me since I was a child and you / my caretaker / my protector I deserve nothing / I am nothing yet I want everything - all of it I take from this life but what is the give back am I even supposed to give back? where are our kids / our veins that we have cut and stitched and cut and stitched again to